The torn and my flesh

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What do you do

When your hearts in two places?

You feel great but you’re torn inside.

You feel love but you just can’t embrace it,

When you found the right one at the wrong time.

What do you do when you’re stuck, because the one that you love has pushed you away and you can’t deal with the pain. And now you’re trying to fix me, mend what he did. I’ll find the piece that I’m missing but I still miss him. I miss him, I’m missing him.

When I met you I didn’t really like you. First impression was you were somebody who’d walk right by when I waved at you and say ‘Hi’ but they say (Hey).  Bad beginnings make happy endings. Now that I know you, I begin to understand things. Its turn around a hundered and eighty degrees. I found my missing piece. There’s something about you that’s like the sun. You warm up my heart when I come undone.

When I get caught in the rain and it feels like there is no one in the world who understands my complications that I’m facing on certain days. I talk it through with you. No matter how I try to hide, you see straight through my disguise. You know how to fix me; you are my therapy. Isn’t it funny how these things can turn around just when I thought I knew you? You proved me wrong. I used to hate the things you love and love the things you hate. But now I like it.

You’re like my soul mate. And on those days, when I hurt and when I break—-you are my band aid.

I think it turned ten o’clock but I don’t really know. And I can’t remember caring for an hour or so. Started crying and I couldn’t stop myself. I started running but there’s nowhere to run to. I sat down on the street took a look at myself. Said where you going man you know the world is headed for hell. Say your goodbyes if you’ve got someone you can say goodbye to.

Waking up at the start of the end of the world, but it’s feeling just like every other morning before. Now I wonder what my life is going to mean if it’s gone, the cars are moving like a half a mile an hour. And I started staring at the passengers who’re waving goodbye.

I believe the world is burning to the ground. Well I believe it all is coming to an end. There is no one on the corner and there’s no one at home. It was cool, it was just all cool. It’s gone, gone, baby, it’s all gone. Now it’s over for me and it’s over for you. Oh well, I guess, we’re gonna pretend. Let’s see how far we’ve come.

Unaware but underlined I figured out this story. It wasn’t good but in the corner of my mind I celebrated glory. But that was not to be in the twist of separation you excelled at being free. Can’t you find a little room inside for me?

And you’re sitting in the front row, wanna be first in line. Waiting by my window, giving me all your time. You could be my hero, if only I could let go. But his love is still in me, like a broken arrow. He’s the thorn in my flesh that I can’t take out. He’s stealing my breath when you’re around. And now you’re trying to convince me, he wasn’t worth it, but you can’t complete me. He’s the part that is missing.

I guess now it’s time for me to give up. I feel it’s time. Got a picture of you beside me; got a fist of pure emotion. Got a head of shattered dreams. Gotta leave it, gotta leave it all behind now. Whatever I said, whatever I did I didn’t mean it. I just want you back for good. Whenever I’m wrong just tell me the song and I’ll sing it. You’ll be right and understood.

And we’ll be together, this time is forever. We’ll be fighting and forever we will be so complete in our love. We will never be uncovered again.

Can you tell me what was ever really special about me all this time?

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